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Jul. 20th, 2009 @ 11:48 pm (no subject)
Current Location: home, where else
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Same said friend from last entry.
Well we had found out that VAMPS was coming to the West Coast and since she's such a Hyde Fan she wanted to go. So as she was disussing on how to make sure Ian didn't come (yeah that's right- a Maestas). I said "why don't we make it my birthday present? That way it'd be girls only" However I kept reminding her that I wouldn't be able to support financially the trip. Which she replied that she woud take care of it all. That was in may: the concert was in June 19th.
Well a month goes around and I'm getting antsy cuz she hasn't saved any money and she wanted to rent a car as well as the hotel and what not. She was also to be coming with me to the gym with me to help her get ready for the strenuous workout of walking  in Seattle being that she has had surgery on both knees (and is 250+lbs).  She didn't ; as a matter of fact she wanted to walk the treadmill, which threw me off cuz she already knew and which I told her when we started that since the bike wasn't good on her knees that she needed to be on the elipticals.
Well she decided that she was going to use all of one check. and then she realized that she still needed to pays bill so she decided to cash out her stock which was to get her away from Ian in the first place. She damaged her knees on the treadmill so she exercised only about two weeks out of the whole two months, and her check wasn't as large as she had hoped (or she was only using the $400 she cashed out on stock).
I'd say I foresaw that tragic bullshit on her end, but I'd be burned at the stake :P

I could only eat bland take out burger drive through, I barely got the cookies that Tim requested of me (because she couldn't walk and talk about selfish: I had told her I was asking Tim to take me to the Aquarium and what does she decide the next day?- Let's go to the Aquarium!) Lets' just say at  the end of the morning she was bitching saying that if she lost 100 lbs she would keep up with me- I told her I was 217. She mistakes being skinny for stamina, I was pretty proud of  myself my heel barely hurt and my tendon didn't swell and we were out and about for two hours. Dosen't mean that I can work yet, I still hate and distrust people I don't know. They get my hackles up big time- I'm working on it though I've only mauled seven people this week. I'm thinking I must have some S.A.D or something; I'm not sad just angry.
Anyway I was the one driving the whole time, which relaxed her but pissed me off cuz she was giving me direction and she had no clue, so I ignored her. She called me bitchy, I would've been calling her worse - nonexistant.
At the end of it all I missed Tim something Terrible. We would have gone out for thai food and I could have gotten some good spicy food with tofu (yummy!) and gone to the chinatown district, and hitting Daiso's for the newest stuff and really goiong to the aquarium and at the end of the evening either going out by ourselves or hanging out with his siblings. I mean I was absolutely bored and lonely. I felt I was looking after a 90 year old lady who thought she was still in her 30's.

The VAMPS concert was fantastic, the bassist was so tall! I shook my head cuz the kids up front didn't understand Hyde when He was trying to talk to the crowd. He used the proper term for a Killer whale which was "Orca" and no body got it to the point where her had to make the motion of a whale, In which I wanted to break out in "Baby Beluga of the deep blue sea!" I also wanted to hollar, cuz it was true, was "damnit Hyde stop flashing me with your guitar! It's burning my retinas!" It kept catching the light and I was right in the correct spot. Music was good though I really wanted to get out of my seat and dance,  they were recording and I didn't want to become the fat chick in an orange tank top shaking it like like I was a size 3 when I'm a size 20. I got hip bumpers that would smak a skinny chick right off her legs.
okay enough of my quips.
To be continued?
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May. 10th, 2009 @ 11:19 pm Editing, writing... drives me crazy...
Current Mood: no...more..
A friend of mind was really energetic about her dream.  So energetic she didn't want to continue one story I was helping her on and immedeatly wanted 2 start another one. And she only got 2 hours sleep for it.
So she hands me my flash driv and says "Write!write!"
Only when I open it up there's so many typos and sporatic sententcing and bad grammar, missing words. lines of thought not making any sense. I couldn't write. My mental state screamed for it to be fixed. However as I've spent three days trying to find energy to continue editing, I can't seem to be equally entralled in this story. It really hasn't grabbed me, even when I read the stuff I'vve corrected so far. It's like the energy she wrote it down was all sporatic and as i've fixed it; I've basicaly killed it. I'm not even 1/2 done. I know she's going to ask me about it this morning too.
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May. 5th, 2009 @ 07:51 pm (no subject)

Your result for The Chakra Test...

The Enlightened One

You have scored 100% Spirituality - Your dominant Chakra is the "Crown or Violet Chakra"

The "Crown or Violet Chakra" is where our spiritual and inspirational energy comes from. It is located at the top of the head. And this is the chakra most developed in you at this time.

You are wise for you age and are one with the world. You understand the world around you and are quite aware of your relationship to it and it to you.

Depending on your percentage score, there is always more room for development. When this chakra is under-active, one's thinking can be quite rigid and lacks a spiritual awareness. If over-active and out of balance with your other chakras, you may be prone to intellectualizing things too much. You can easily become addicted to spirituality and thus ignore your bodily and emotional needs.

What is most important is to find balance amongst all 7 chakras. Have a look at what percentages you scored on the others and work to increase their power and balance with each other.

Root Chakra: 35% Passion, Sacral(Spleen) Chakra: 71% Desire, Solar Plexus (Navel) Chakra: 41% Purpose, Heart Chakra: 0% Balance, Throat Chakra: 50% Expression, Third Eye Chakra: 18% Imagination and Crown Chakra: 100% Spirituality!

 

 

"Crown Chakra" Key Words: Knowingness, Wisdom, Inspiration, Awareness, Higher Self, Meditation, Self Sacrificing, Visionary

"Crown Chakra"Attributes: Color - Violet Sense - Beyond sensory Element - Space Seat - Liberation, All Power, Eternal Bliss

 

 

 

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May. 5th, 2009 @ 07:21 pm Gossiping while running w/ scissors; How dangerous!
Current Mood: simma down
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Oh, while I simmer, I've been allowed *wicked grin* to reveal some new dirt that has me pleased (which means I'm simmering down not up).
This person gave me permission after being told from someone, whom Brandy (trever's wify) told them; that She along with the other two Maestas brothers (that would be Shawn and Ian) that they were nothing but white trailer trash because they " couldn't pay all there bills".

Well turns out lil miss wifey has been sleeping around, with the roomate, 4 times before said roomate left and got his life back together and drop her like so much garbage. The Man of the house has forgiven her on the grounds that she had a "Misscarriage" of said roomates baby.
Come on now.   We know what that really means in "Loose woman talk" right. For those with no  clue it begins with "A". It's amazing that's she's had several of these "misscarriages" when sleeping around with other women's men, or just when she's about to leave said man, and yet seems to produce two healthy babies with no problems when they are her husband's kids (at least she hopes so).

So all I can do is giggle with glee, praise Karma and hope that it will shine on me and those I love with financial blessings.
I could really use it.
Like right now.
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May. 5th, 2009 @ 07:14 pm PITCHING A FIT! >.<*
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: DAMNIT!!!
Current Music: ~silence~
Gods BLAST it All!
I just got back from being mentally evaluated by the state and what should I find but a notice that my lease is almost over and that I can sign for an 8mth ans the cost of 655 a month,  when I'm payiong 615 RIGHT NOW! What the hell?! I'm almost paying for a 2 br apt when I am paying for 1!
I moven in here in like early 07 and it's driving me a damn wall! cut me some friggin  slack! I can't even Work, Let alone find a job. And I don't have the cash to move! totally pisses me off; I feel like I'm insane. Or the world is turned into a bunch of greedy whiny assholes.
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Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 09:11 pm (no subject)

 


 

 

ahh memories.

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Sep. 26th, 2008 @ 09:42 pm I became a human Pincushion 2day!
Current Mood: brave!
Well, as soon as I landed at Portland I found my right ankle swollen  to the size of a large sofball and my joints comepletly useless. I couldn't support my weight nor the back pack. I had to be wheeled from the plane to outside of the baggage claim where Tim would pick me up (he had come with me, but on different flights). Heading to our hotel room was painfull, and the ice gave no comfort and I was totally exhausted that I fell asleep with my hair wet. In the morning we decided to hunt around for a place called Voodoo Doughnuts (They do weddings too! Look 'em up!). As we walked around I noticed this acupunture place as a woman was opening it. In alot of pain I asked about the place. Turns out it's a non-profit organization promoted to healthy living. I did a little searching online , so I gave them a call.

This trip was hell!

I've been sick, actually it seems like one thing is piling up on the other. So I haven't been feeling much heat and I stayed too long in the shower- I had barely made it as the train was about to pull away. I also had no time to withdrawl money, so from 4 am to 11 I had no food and very little water. So I went to my acupunture with a migrane I didn't know how to manage.  My 'punturist and his mentor placed three fingers just below my wrist and the switched. I was facinated as they were talking. Even though I didn't know the lingo, I was understanding it perfectly. they gave me a chioce as to either try and relive the migrane or handle the right foot injury He then explained what he was going to do and a quick intro to acupuncture.
he placed one on my forehead. It felt kind of like I had just popped a big zit, and told him so. Then he placed one on each hand and started from there. He tried to place one near the jointing on my big toes, but that didn't work. All in all on my first try (FEAR NEEDLES PPL!!) i had 9 pins- I think he was aiming for 12+.. But after the legs my body began trembling uncontrolably. I knew if I tensed up to stop I'd hurt myself, we tried coaching me through deep breathing, but in then end he let me relax as is and left me alone to let the acupunture take hold.
In the end I walked away feeling very good, But I think I'll definately be needing more visits for me to really feel better.
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Aug. 25th, 2008 @ 09:29 pm Travel plans SUUUUUUUUCK!!!!
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AUGH!!! No matter what I do the first three day are  HELL IN A HANDBASKET !

No matter it's going to make little risu mind go squirrelly. Either I catch a ride to get to  MArcus Hook at 9.37 pm in order to catch the R1 to get back to the airport to meet tim (he lands at 12:09 AM), wait 4 hours there to catch a cab back to Philly to get on the train back to Conn.  
or get a hotel Saturday night and not go to the black wedding...

Or we can convince some sweet person at the party to take me the 30 min drive to the airport so I can meet up with Tim. I'd still have to wait a few hours between the landing and the train but oh, well..

CAN SOMEONE GIVE THIS SISTER A HAND???!!
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Apr. 23rd, 2008 @ 01:50 am Answering to Quel's resume querry
Current Mood: accomplished
AHHH!! I had to remember it now! Teamwork Productions!! And the website still has Trever's Logo. Sunufa---! Anyhow I'm not sure, but it kinda looks like it's still in business, just not so big.
http://www.ateamworkproduction.com/teamwork.htm
Woke me out of a snooze, too :(
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Apr. 1st, 2008 @ 09:32 am (no subject)
Current Location: home
Current Mood: So stressed I wanna cry
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I feel so stressed. Everytime I think about having to return to WalHell I wanna cry. I've torn 50%+ on my achellis tendon, and this place called WorkCare is sending me back to work. I haven't been compensated  for the whole month I haven't been able to go to work. The is trying to figure out what the hell is going on with the insurance people as why they've been slacking. and here I am, in the middle with three bills coming up for the first 2 weeks of April. I'm so desperate- I've sold the stocks I've been saving for a car or knocking out my student loans. What truely hurts is that feeling, something is glowing inside me; it needs expression and release. I know What I want and need to do, but it takes time and money. And it can start here, where I'm at, but it can't continue. It can't be here. I can't find work here, not only can I do and get paid, but it dosen't inspire  me, it dosen't set me on fire or satify me. Too many jobs here require time or skills that I don't have. Alot of positions require that you have had the actually post, not just the reaposibilities- the story of my friggin' life. I'm not so lost as restrained, and that hurts in a way that's hard to explain.
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Dec. 29th, 2007 @ 10:48 am I've got a cat
Current Mood: blah

And I'm alergic. *cue hilarity.
The cat basically made a choice, go into the shiny bright spot with the humans inside orrr... the  cyotes. Yeah there are cyotes here in Richland. The cat ran inside, got spooked by the maintenance machines and ended up under the grails for the pets dept in the back of recieving. Me and a few others coxed him out, very loving guy. but nobody else could take him and there was a report in the paper that day about the shelter being really over populated. I reluctantly took him in, bought all the cat stuff, and am living with the cat temporarily. I called a nonprofit organization called POPPS, which helps finds permanant homes for pets. However, they have to be inoculated and spayed/neutered before hand.
So I named him Degrimm, shortened from Degrimorum. And am trying to get him reacclimated to living indoors, and that there are rules. Fucker's already learned not to bite me. He now slinks under the futon if he hears the tone of my voice and realises he's done wrong. However I still give him love, except after I shower cuz my allergies kick in three fold.
Me and Tim had a good X-mas. I was hanging out with his father's side of the family, which I guess was ok. When I told mom what I got for x-mas (A convection Oven and FFXII), and she sounded disappointed. Did she expect him to get me a ring? >.< I hope not- I'd like to be surprized if it happened, but I'm not really expecting it in the first place.
Am working on an outfit, and it's kind of hard because I want to alter the pattern, tring to figure that out.
Trying to get in the mood for some art to be done, see if I still got it and if I still have the talent. And if there's an interest at Radcon.
Well, That's all. Ta for now

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Dec. 7th, 2007 @ 10:22 am (no subject)
Current Mood: yay me!
Current Music: Internet- Porn
  WOHOO! done! YAY me!!! i got a 90/90 for my ppt prresentation. I'm so stoked! That mean that even if my paper's crap, I'll still come out good. Japanese ; weellll I think I failed fantastically, but I  guess that okay. I guess that mean I can start on my own from scratch using the books I have. Dosen't matter tho', I wasn't planning on taking 202 anyways.
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Nov. 13th, 2007 @ 01:54 pm (no subject)
I really  just want to scream. I told Tim I wasn't coming home. Told him the paper, which right now is the ultimate in importance of geology, is top priority. Does he wait at home or where he want to til I call and say I'm coming home? (Which would be late at nite?) NO... grr... he's calling even now. I'll post more later!
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Nov. 8th, 2007 @ 10:30 am ..while you're at it - why don't you just pour lemonjuice on it!
Current Location: CBC Lounge
Current Mood: I got th' sniffles
Current Music: none- stupid LT
Well, it looks like I won't be passing not only Japanese, but also my Geology class either. And i was doing so well too- a B avege. So depressing. To add a little more salt in my wounds I have to go to work on Friday and I think I've caught a cold.. Yay Frickin me >.<#. 
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Oct. 27th, 2007 @ 12:49 am *ggggrrrowlll*
Current Location: home
Current Mood: F@*&in FOOT
Current Music: comedy central

I pulled something in the underside of the foot. now I have plantar flacitis. Damn pulled tendons! I can't can't stand for longer than ten minutes at a time and now that my job violated that rule from the doctors, It's now affected my ankle, knee and both hip joints badly. I got a week off from my most recent dr visit.  Thank gods cuz they've been putting me round the ringer for almost 2 weeks. I've been in alot of pain. The doc/nurse percribed some shoe inserts and for a therapist to mold out another insert to fit my foot, as well as physical therapy. At least this elimates one of my stress issues. Now it's off to Japanese homework, my geology  paper and more homework. My brain is frying.
in other news, I got my passport in under two weeks and I'm trying desperatly to save money to join my class for a trip to Japan because obviously the school just can't find reasons to have "classes" on this trip. Idiots I guess. but I thinnking of trying to sell some art work at up coming RadCon, but Tim's just wondering If I have enought time to properly work  on it. In reality, so am I.

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Sep. 30th, 2007 @ 08:40 am PERSONA!- what happened to the hand?!?
Current Mood: awake
Persona 3 is very different than the one I remember from along time ago... I have been sent back to High school society and I'm armed with an Evoler that looks like a revolver to summon my personas. I have to ask were the developers SUiCIDAL or hoping for MASS HOMICIDE to ensue? you decide, I'm going to make more friends and try out for the Kendo Team.
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Sep. 1st, 2007 @ 09:45 am stuffy feeling
Current Location: home
Lately, I've been feeling kind of enclosed. My apartment feels stuffy and hot even when I have the ac at a comfortable 76 degrees. even the store feels stuffy. I NEED NATURE!!!! I need to go camping... badly. Need trees, cold winds; no walls!! My inner squirrel needs to run free. it's either that or I need to  look for a new job.
Oh by the way, in Portland I came upon a very nice garden
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Aug. 23rd, 2007 @ 09:50 am (no subject)

The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world Gjia didn't exist.

Which movie was this quote from?

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okay that was too ..scary. How about...

I've seen things you people wouldn't believe. Gjia on fire off the shoulder of Orion.

Which movie was this quote from?

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Jul. 22nd, 2007 @ 03:15 pm (no subject)
Current Location: home
Current Mood: aggravated
feeling a bit lonely, but also in need of solitude. Tim has begun to aggitate me because he won't answer my question of "Do you want to be with me?" He has begun to stay at my house from Monday to Friday morning, mostly because I kick him out. And it's always the same thing: "Huh? Why are you going to bed so early?" My reply is always constant- "Because I have to cycle to work."  If I'm not awake earlier, then I'm really sluggish and won't move fast enough if I sleep later.
Anyways, the main point was the original question, "Do you want to be with me?"
I have never practiced more patience than with this man I swear to god! His answer? "I don't know."... *Cue the my anger, as would any woman*
We've been sleeping together for nine months and- you- don't- know (?!?!!).. All I want is a fricking yes or no. No long explaination as to why he is, for some bizzare reason, hesitant to tell me. And then he tries to cheer me up the whole rest of the day, trying to tickle me, saying he likes me, cuddling and kissing me when we get to my apartment.... AUUUGH!! I wish he'd just be more upfront!! If yes- great of no then pack your sh!t cuz we're just going to be friends if you want to and nothing else. I am too old for this crap.
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Jul. 3rd, 2007 @ 12:02 am The evils of greed
Current Location: home
Current Mood: crushed
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Greed, I'm beginning to believe, lives in all people. No matter how hard we try to be fair, giving, and forgiving, as soon as someone is unable to do or decide for someone else, another person, whom we believe to contain these elements of goodness;  becomes the complete opposite.  This situation becomes even harder when you're related to both sides of the situation, and you know that greed turns people into liars. My uncle has put a restraining order against my mother and her sisters, he has disowned my father- his little brother- and has been telling lies behind our backs for so long that to my father other brothers and sisters that they believe my uncle. My mother only received condolences from two people, a cousin Diana and my uncle Goy- who is mentally disabled and the Valentin's seem to keep him ignorant or he really just doesn't give a damn. A mother is gone, just like his is gone and he knows that basic element of loss and no one should be shuned like they were doing.
had greed never set into my uncle Ralf and had he not signed over the house to his daughter,  my aunt and mom would have only taken the photo's and a few trinket's.
But perhaps that kindness and eccentric demeanor of my uncle's was a lie, and now we see his true face.
what I want to know is- how did I know that the next time i would be going to Pr was going to be as a stranger?
I'm sorry I'm so angry and flabbergahsted that my mind is in a jumble.  I could use a thunderous storm right now- my head hurts.
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